kRaZy’s Blog

lol..i’ve been wondering for quite some time..am i really that scary? or do i look like those very fierce and unapproachable person? y ppl like always scared 2 talk 2 me? =x im kinda worried now coz i prefer being alone than hanging out in 1 big group..i dun really go socialise d >.< but the reason i’ve took up mass comm is bcoz i wanna be an event organiser some day,and it’s impossible 2 work without socialising..i duno la..maybe it juz happened coz i didnt c my frens quite long d..perhaps things will change soon..haha..many things happen in this few weeks. 4 those who duno,i’ve started college on 09/07,studying diploma in Mass Comm at inti college subang jaya and not studying psychology in UM haha =P that wouldnt be too bad though =x life in college still ok lo..my class very small only,so i didnt get 2 make much new frens..the others i met r my seniors who’s sharing 1 of the class with us and others from basketball club. when i joined the bball club i was quite excited actually coz i tot i will get 2 play bball everyday like last time haha..but it turns out quite differently =/ i only get 2 play once a week and that 1 day practice maybe around 1hr only and only 1 game T_T so sad.. T_T i duno y le..but i really like basketball a lot haha..when i c got ppl playing at the court i will try and ask if i can join or not even 2 strangers XD the next thing that i really like would be dota i guess lol. i use 2 be really freak for dota..i can play from morning till midnite nonstop =P but now college start d i dun haf much time 2 go dota plus mmo’s line damn sux d..play bs there = waste my money,time and energy lol. actually i feel like very little frens now haha..it’s quite boring during my break time..duno wanna go where..im not so interested 2 eat there,go dota play only that 1 game plus go alone most of the time also lose 1..go library would be ok if i haf written assignment but i dun haf now..as for the comp lab go there sure msn frenster 1 haha XD wun be doing anything there so a bit like wasting time lol. haih duno la..hopefully during my 2mth holiday i can get my license,fail how many times also muz retake..no transport so damn ma fan..always need go back early if got no frens who can fetch and i dowan 2 ma fan ppl fetch me also..i never liked the feeling of asking ppl do something 4 me (unless it is something they should do =P) luckily..i still got close frens wif me who wouldnt mind listening 2 my probs and troubles without asking 4 reward ^^ i seriously wanna thanx u guys..without u all i duno i will breakdown how many times d haha..especially noob lucky who always let me bully haha =P perhaps i shouldnt care 2 much bout the quantity of frens but the quality lol..i do haf a gang of very close frens..eventhough we dont get 2 c everyday but everything gathering it would feels like we’ve never been apart lol..i really enjoy when going out wif them and reminiscing all our old memories during the skool days lol.."bat king bat kok" graduate d 2 years and next year 21 loh..can legally (to kim yang =P) go in casino d lol..so damn old liao >.< paktor those stuff wun think now..got then got,dun haf then dun haf..i wun die without a bf anyway lol..i think i wrote 2 much lol. more than wat i intended 2 XD so 4 those who read this pls pls do tell me..do i look that unapproachable? thanx haha XD

it was my birthday yday ^^ b4 that i didnt plan 2 do anything on my birthday. 4 me i am happy juz 2 know that my frens remembers my birthday lol..anyway..i know that chor mun has planned 4 me,she called our ex skoolmates out and makan 2gather =) i tot that there will be the usual few only but when i reach i was surprised 2 c there r more than the usual few lol XD 1st there’s jia wei whom i havent seen since she’s back from aussie,then there’s qiu yan who i didnt see since she went 2 singapore and back again lol. and also lai sin and yuk pui whom i rarely see after we graduate haha..and also there r sum who said that they r not coming who turned up later 2. i think i will list out every1 so u wun think that i "pin sam" =P

those i meet regularly : chor mun,chen kai,kim yang,jiun kit,wei jian,tong hong.

those i will c when there is gathering : chun leng,khai shang,ju lien,yuk pui,lai sin,ying hui,qiu yan.

special guests : jiin dong,wei shen,daniel,william and the MIA 1 : jia wei =P

those who couldnt come but wished me anyway : chee meng,wuei yunn,yu xian,sook mun and pei yun

most of the names i mention above r those that i’ve known for years. they r my secondary skoolmates lol. im really happy 2 haf them as frens coz even after we graduate 4 so long they still gif me face celebrate my birthday wif me lol =P i know not a lot who can still be so close wif their old frens so i appreciate them hehe. well..steamboat was fun. we put everything in,every1 will be chatting while waiting 4 the food 2 cook and when it’s ready,fight time /gg after that i got 2 know that i got 2 birthday cake hehe. 1 from wei jian,wei shen and tong hong and the other 1 from chor mun and i duno who else >.< but both the cakes r nice =D i will upload the photos when i get my hands on them. so in total this year’s bday i got 3 bday cakes in total haha..1 more is given 2 me by hein hong,thanx ya =) after steamboat..ju lien suggested that we go genting and 2nd round. i was so excited haha..coz i’ve been wanting 2 go genting 4 quite sum time =P so in the end they accompany me go genting 4 2nd round. we went home and get out stuffs then meet up there. the weather was nice that nite ^^ we all met at 1st world’s starbucks and then we change 2 coffee bean coz we all prefer coffee bean lol. i brought along 2 packs of cards so i played wif them but only 2 rounds coz i’ve asked chemica,my bs clan chieftain 2 meet lol. i didnt even get 2 drink my caramel ice blended =/ so i left them 2 meet up wif chemica a while haha..besides him,there’s also bcOne and 2 more of his frens that i duno. although he’s quite shy but luckily im not haha XD we went 2 play dota at cybertime and he spend me =x during mid game fren keep calling me telling me they wanna go home d lol. so after i finish 1 game,i went back 2 my frens at mcd. by that time most of them has left =P those who’s still there r tong hong,kim yang,chen kai and william. william spend me ocean blue mcfizz wif his winnings from uncle lim haha. after that we all go home loh. the fuel low light of chen kai’s car has lighted up since we start our journey home lol. luckily the car didnt run out of fuel half way =x so dangerous haha..on the way going down..suddenly i think back of sumthing that once happened on my way going down genting lol..well..4 that guy that thing might be sumthing small but 4 me it’s sumthing that i will remember..anyway i wun go and think of guys already..haf then haf,dun haf then dun haf =D memories..if it’s not real,y think back rite? on my way down..ppl who’ve promised me stuff that they didnt do..quite hurt also 2 realise that what they said is juz..said. not that i expected them 2 do wat they said anyway but still knowing that those ppl who said 2 me "sad or unhappy call me,24hrs on call" but didnt do it at last feels like they r lying and i dun like ppl lie 2 me..doesnt matter la..i made up my mind 2 stop thinking back =) anyway i really had great fun that day..happy =D tHaNx 2 every1 who celebrate wif me,those who wished me,those who dropped me testi and those who sms’ed me.

this few days..i duno wat’s wrong wif me..i am only interested in dota..besides that i wat mood also dun haf..actually…i wanna say 4 now all i want is juz frens..i frenly 2 ppl not bcoz i wanna attract any1 or flirt or watsoever…currently i am not interested 2 date any1..so..hope u guys get it =) finally i start playing team game haha..last time when i play team game i will be very nervous..but now..hehe,better already =P btw..sorry 2 those i offended in this few days..i duno i very moody,when wind come i will change 100% and maybe will scold ppl >.< sorry ya..i dun mean it..till 2day..i still got no mood..things that happen 2 me..i duno who can i share it wif..eventhough there r ppl who volunteer,but..they juz cant make me tell them =) plus..sum1 said will always be by my side and support me..say he wun lie,but in the end..same thing happen..everytime ppl said that 2 me in the end they will end up hurting me and make me lost trust..even though i already expected that guy juz say say only..but still..it hurts. =) anyway..used 2 it..maybe in a few weeks time i will be back 2 normal..who knows..but 4 now..i would prefer if ppl dun ask me 2 much stuff..chatting is fine,but pls..dun provoke me..dun keep ask me and force me 2 tell wat i dowan tell or tell me wat 2 do..i dun like ppl 2 care bout me so much. i can take care of myself =)

hm…b4 that i say i might be going 2 college rite if everything goes well..2 bad,it doesnt..so i’m not in college yet..sux..anyway..i quit my job at iplay d coz dun really enjoy working there eventhough every1 is nice there ^^ now i’m looking 4 a job…bout my studies…i also cant do anything d except follow the flow..any1 who haf any job pls recommend 2 me loh,of coz i mean jobs wif high pay haha..about a mth ago i met keng liang at eclipse and then i started hanging out wif him haha..he intro me 2 his gang of frens and i get 2 expand my frens circle hehe =P all of them also very nice and i enjoy goingout wif them also ^^ then last week,victor dai lou came back from oman d. i welcome you back here haha but you so bad,didnt get 2 find my candy >.< and i also wanna say sorry 2 my ex-classmates 4 ffk’ing on the 10th of feb,sorry i cant attend the "lou sang" party..i got sore throat >.< if got chance we lou again loh k? i’m really missing my sis coz usually when cny coming she will be the 1 who accompany me shopping and "lou sang"..hope she’s fine there ^^ havent celebrate CNY in malaysia 4 2 years d..kind of 4gotten how it feels..dun seems 2 haf the excitement like that time haha where i will shop till i get everything new =P as 4 collecting ang pau(s) and visiting frens house..really duno wat should i be saying when i’m there haha..this year i will be celebrating quite alone i guess..but i will make sure i wun stay at home so much..dun wanna miss the festive mood ^^ call me out la whoever who free hehehe =P

haha..recently i quite loyal,only play 1 game now unlike last time where i touch all the game i can =P anyway,hope can be better in dota..and also hope i can find a gang of frens who can dota wif me >.< damn sien now..always playing wif different ppl..very jealous those who got team or frens 1…duno y i’m so attracted 2 this game… >.<

sooner or later i think i might start hating guys already..really dun understand how guys think..their thinking is really..simple? or complicated? i really feel sien..until now beside my 1 and only ex-bf others who asked me 2 be their gf juz say it so casually..i’ve always heard a lot b4 my 1st bf. always wonder how it feels..heard many stories from my frens but wat i’ve seen is so different..they will receive some small gifts,which is quite sweet..doesnt haf 2 be expensive also. and some of the guys will like try very hard 2 win her heart. 4 me wat i’ve experienced is (not including me ex!) hmm..they juz ask "hey,can u be my gf?" and that’s it. hello..feeling dun juz come like that,need time 2 "pui yong" rite? after say no,then they will take it like ntg ever happened and some of them might even stop contacting u. worse is..guys who lie! i also not pretty,not rich,not famous..even i dun understand they want lie me wat. guys izit when lonely can juz simply grab a girl and ask them be his gf? i really cant tahan ppl lie 2 me! haihz…really scared already..rather be single..no need think so much. less 1 problem.

a lot ppl r always telling lies around me..even though they know i hate ppl who lie 2 me they still do that..cant u get it? i HATE L-I-A-R-S!!! especially guys..they will always sweet talk 2 u and tell u they mean it,but i think it’s so obvious that it’s juz mere sweet talk..so pls stop saying things that u dun mean. harmless flirt is ok,but don’t say that u mean it unless u really do..2 those who is doing that hope u can get it =)

every1 hope’s 2 be living my life now which is not working or studying,everyday juz go out and do watever i wanna do but i would rather haf a life like them where i can haf something 2 do everyday,i would prefer study than having ntg 2 do everyday. it’s not really that fun actually,everyday u wake up u will haf ntg in ur mind. then u will wash ur face and think "wat am i going 2 do 2day?". go 4 gaming,kind of getting bored and it’s really wasting money. yamcha? who can i call? i’ve lost quite a lot of fren eversince i started working overseas. =.=" i’m sick of this life la! i want back my old life where i can study and enjoy myself at the same time. wake up in the morning instead of evening like wat i do now. sleep by midnite instead of early in da morning..

the guy i meant in my title would be my younger bro. i duno wat is wrong wif him,doesnt understand the meaning of privacy i guess..we dont get along well since we r young. last year i caught him reading my diary and so i stopped writing diary ever since that. i tell him not 2 do that again. ut who knows,last week i left my other phone in the other room and that stupid guy once again invade my privacy,not only he read my sms,but he 4ward the sms 2 his phone 2! how can sum1 be so…soo….argh!! cant find a word 2 describe him! i was angry but i kept quiet..bcoz he doesnt know bout it he was like very "wai" like that,acting "dai lou". until i cant tahan him that time i tell him i know wat he did he juz shut himself up. serve him right! i dont want 2 hate him but i really cant help myself 2 hate him!!!

guess wat,i’m on a shopping spree LoLz! went shopping few days already =D i used 2 hate shopping but duno y now i kind of like it =P well,story telling time hehe,when i went 2 overseas last oct,i 1st worked in abu dhabi,the capital of United Arab Emirates (UAE) 4 2 weeks. for ur info it’s not the same as saudi arabia,it’s another country ^^ ppl there r rich haha XD then i went 2 dubai’s Global Village wif another fren of mine earlier 2 set a new counter. there we stayed at a place name dragonmart. it’s a town where only ppl from china is allowed 2 stay there. there is pork there haha. so u can call that as china town of dubai. life there was kind of ok at 1st. found a cc which only consists of 2 comps and it’s based in a house,isnt it cool lol. so i get 2 on9 the 1st few weeks. later on i was sent 2 oman 2 work. so once again i left dubai and went there 4 another 11 days. i work wif different group of ppl there so initially i know more frens ^^ oh ya,i learnt mandarin from there haha! actually as u all know i can understand it,juz cant speak 2 well but when i was there i was forced 2 speak mandarin coz my home and working place is surrounded by chinese from china who cant speak english >.< it’s either i speak mandarin or i shut up 4 the whole 4 mths =P around dec,i discovered a basketball court somewhere near my house ^^ i started gathering my frens 2 play everynite but they very bad,sometimes lazy 2 go >.< i was afraid at 1st but soon i got 2 know frens from playing so i began going down alone everynite 2 play ^^ those frens i met from bball were great,most of them can play well and they r frenly,they didnt mind accepting me in their team haha..was so happy that i haf something 2 entertain myself after working,seriously it was like the only thing i look 4ward everyday. thanx 2 it i get 2 work out a bit hehe. wonder if i’ll haf the chance 2 meet them again,miss all of them very much. few of them brought me 2 walk around dubai when i was about 2 leave,i appreciate it very much =D anyway,will write more when i remember more =P